Turning pages
Wed, 22 Dec 2004 Filed in:
Journal
Listening to someone talk about “being
in the present” the other day, I found myself thinking that this
idea is very strange. We are always in the present; there is
nowhere else to be. The idea of “being in the present” has no
meaning, because living can’t be otherwise. So what do people mean
by saying it? It seems to be telling us not to do certain things:
Don’t think, feel; don’t imagine, watch; don’t wander, attend. And
yet, the mental is as much a part of life as the physical and
emotional. Understanding context is often what allows the eyes to
see, and the heart to feel. Time is like reading a book. The eyes
can only be on one page at a time. Whatever page we’re on is the
present. As we read, we turn the pages, creating by that movement a
past and future: what we’ve already read, and what we have yet to
read. Past and future are always part of the present; the present
could not be what it is without them. We read pages in order to
read books. A single page has little meaning by itself. Its meaning
is a composite of what came before it, and what will follow. As we
move through the book, we create a consciousness of the story
within ourselves, which is the act of reading. “Being in the
present” would be like telling someone to focus on the current
page, whereas really attention is due to the story. The ability to
connect to a book’s overall meaning through its pages is a capacity
of the intellect. The pages together point toward an unseen reality
— the story — which the mind allows us to comprehend. Paying
attention to life, then, requires a full use of the mind as well as
the senses. No part can be rejected, if we hope to appreciate the
whole. What if life is a book, and time the turning of its pages?
What if existence is God’s auto-biography? Then by looking to the
connections between things, perhaps we can read its deeper
meaning.