A different reality
Tue, 13 Dec 2005 Filed in:
Journal
I woke up this morning from a very
powerful dream; the feeling of it is still with me. In its details
it was rather simple, but in its feeling and meaning it was very
profound for me. I had somehow come to a complete understanding
that human souls are granted by God the freedom to experience
whatever reality they most believe in. This took particular forms
in the dream, but in the clearest, I was seated in an empty, white
room, eating a phone book. A co-worker stepped in to wonder what I
was doing, but I had no way to explain that for me, the room had
everything in it I could ever want, and that the phonebook was
actually a very tasty lasagna. Later when I thought about this it
occurred to me that a phone book, of sorts, represents an
particular ideal of knowledge: a single book that’s a compendium of
irrefutable factual knowledge, well organized. Meanwhile I was
eating this book as if it were a tasty meal. This brought the
following quote to mind: Although to outward view, the wayfarers in
this Valley may dwell upon the dust, yet inwardly they are throned
in the heights of mystic meaning; they eat of the endless bounties
of inner significances, and drink of the delicate wines of the
spirit. In another scene, I was driving on the freeway, which was
filled with traffic, yet I was somehow feeling the most intense
peace and joy to be alive and experiencing such a place. I
wondered, “What if hell is our real home and this life is just a
respite? That would completely alter how we experience existence
here.” That is, we seem to want something so much better; what if
this life is actually fantastic, and we miss out on that reality
because we believe in something else? At the end of the dream I was
trying to tell a group of people this, even lifting myself into the
air to shock them into accepting the possibility that things might
be other than they seem. I remember saying to the group: “Our
culture has so completely determined the life we experience, we
can’t even separate what we’ve been told from what we know
ourselves. Imagine if the basis of all our understanding begins
with the number two. No matter how much we add to that foundation,
we will never comprehend unity. We need to subtract from what we
started with to achieve that understanding. We’ve been set up in
such a way that Truth is simply not perceptible.” Then the dream
ended and I felt as if anything were possible provided I truly
believed in it. It might appear one way to those who see me, but
*how I experience it* is something completely up to me.